I am getting sick of this now... Why does this happen to me all the time... Whatever I say, Life hits me back with the same 'Steel'... consoled someone for grades and in a minute.. I found mine grade lower than ever in my life... had another conversation with other person about not getting a job... and in few hours, I got a reject mail from my dream job & company.... Ahhhhhhhhhh!
I am fed up of making compromises and fooling myself.... Koi Naa... :(
Shall I keep my mouth shut and let it happen what ever is people facing in the world I know?.... Shall I? ........
I don't know..... Somewhere I know I wont be able too... as soon as I see someone on some problem.. I don't know what rushes inside me and I start will those gyaan... I hate this.. I love this as well... at least I find that other person in a better mood at the end... but then as soon as I get back to my life...i see myself in dump hole... And i know i am just putting this as an excuse... these conversations dnt define my destiny... bt atleast I can ........... .............................!
hmmm........
May be I am not putting my best... actually I know I am not... I don't know when I moved from that hardworking guy who used to work first and then expect... to this idiotic personality.
I 'genuinely' used to hate people in my undergrad... who used to say..U know wat.... "agar main karne pe aa jaun to mujhse accha koi nai.." LOOSERS..... insults ownself.. own talent and everything around them... n I am afraid to see I am slowly falling into same category.... y don't I work hard?... Where is my mind?... Where is my soul? ...and Where I am?.....
How long I will be doing this...I need to go back home [India]... and I need to ans this before I come back here.... I cant take this anymore....
Let it be whatever it is for sometime.... But I will rise again... I will shine again... n I will do it like never before..... I have it in me... I know! Cannot thanks enuf GA Tech and United States to make me familiar with failures.... seems from the moment I land here.. its been a chain of failures... uffffffffffffffffff!
Maanunga na main bhi haar....
See You Soon...
Love You!
